say hi to the filmography of ethan hawke

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iufDnWkp2g0&feature=player_embedded

I really always loved ethan hawke

from gattaca he was my favourite

ever

i hate his naration voice

i think he delivers badley when he speaks

but then he always has this sense of fragile calm -

very americana yetvery delicate

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0UxWmIEHAcQ&feature=player_embedded

i watched gattaca like 6 times in one day

because i dunno i related to it... strangely

the archietecture the soundtrack, the classicness and jude law <3 before the hype ( i fell inlove with his
psycho killer character from wisdom of the crocodile before he fixed his nose....

he looked more brutal !!!)i feel so attracted to analy clean organized men who wear sharp suits and upper body strength !!

and like this man "in-valid" so taboo

and at the same time so strangely delicateand after the sex scene with uma thurman he goes to the ocean like scrapes his skin with stoneswow.

sadistic... SEXY

i was like what...12...and thinking "hmmm i like this movie why...."

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fQhmB3fcCSk

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fQhmB3fcCSk

daul kim~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

rest rest rest rest rest

south of france

i wanna south fo france~~~~~~~~~~~~~`

say bye

i tell myself

im strong.

i dont need to show

my painful past

no one needs to know the horror

i went through

i grew up too quickand no one, saw past my surface

i dont know how to hurt people

i dont know how to be loved

i dont know how to loveim hurtbut

im strongand

im perfect

alone.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!11111

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QZnyrp__CNU&feature=player_embedded

so so lonely............................./

I'm lonely.

what kind of loneliness?

every kind.

i feel disconnected. abandoned.

as always.

repetition

so what my love.

so what.


at first,

i just wanted to run away.

now i have no where else to run to

nothing to run from

i dont belong

anywhere.

i dont want to go anywhere

i just wanted to be happy

JUST WANTED TO BE HAPPY

life is shortTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTttttTTTTTTTT

do i have original thought in my head?

life is short.

ost of it today is the first day of the rest of my life..

if i stopped putting things off,

i'de be happier.

All i do is sit on my fat ass,

what should i be made to feel

i have to apologize for my existance?